Curve Ball

Hey all, Its been awhile since I posted on here but you know sometimes life gets in the way. And after the day I had I felt lost and afraid. You see, recently I have been feeling pain in my abdomen and last year they discovered some enlarged lymph nodes there but said it was nothing to worry about. Well due to the unusual pain and frequent bathroom runs, I felt it was necessary to get a follow up check up. So, I went to my primary doc who wants me to get a colonoscopy this week and go back to my hemo/oncologist the following week. (I started seeing the hemo/oncol in 2016 to make sure it wasn’t cancer, and it wasn’t). Anyway, my primary doc looked very serious and personally called these other doctors to get me in asap which really worried me. She then said, we’re going to get to the bottom of this and find out what is going on and you have to take care of yourself. Don’t worry about work, think about yourself. At that moment I realized what she wasn’t saying. I never even considered that it could be colon cancer. I just thought I had enlarged lymph nodes from something else. But my primary put it into perspective with all my symptoms and the fact that the nodes are double the size as last year…It’s time to take this seriously. So, I am freaking out as I’m only 52 years old and have two kids. I just got remarried last November and I have a brother who is disabled with congestive heart failure that I take care of too. I just don’t know how am I supposed to deal with this? I am scared stiff. I ask for prayers, I guess that’s all I can do for now. God bless!